Two sunrises with two shots each, a shot of my own, about four glasses of wine, and whatever was resin in my pipe. I wonder if I'm learning from any of this.

I really wonder why the fuck I feel so comfortable with my man Jonathan without even meeting him, and why I tell him things I tell no one else.
I know it's not a big deal, but I pee while I'm on the phone with him. I don't do that with anyone else, and if I do I feel so embarassed and tell them about it later. I never have to tell him, because I never feel embarassed. He says the funniest things and doesn't feel embarassed about them, either.
Cece could be dead on - soul mates, for real. God I hope so. I feel in love, and I feel that when he gets here nothing will be different except that it will be even better.
I am ecstatic <3

ps. I have to write my senior paper, still!
Jonathan told me to do it. And he's gunna work as a painter for about a month.
The guy is so down for helping him out, it's like a godsend.
Everything is working out!
Except I did text taylor last night.
That stupid idiot... I think once I get wasted with Jonathan, then I won't even think of Taylor ever, unless Cece says 'my brother'. But just especially since I took all my first and last shots with Taylor, and events unfolded immediately after, that when I take shots or drink hard liquor, I think of him cuz I am expecting events to unfold.
But I will change my own mind soon. :]