What a funny thing to say "420" it is outloud. But on the actual day of April twentieth, everyone was at school, and Columbine was the ruling topic at hand.
I feel connected to those kids. It's not because I go to school, too.
Those boys, that place, the state.
That's why.

We did Yoga in aerobics. I think my teacher was high.
But I'm completely serious. We did it all very slow-paced,
and she had us do relaxation after that. She has
never done something like that before. It was the
best thing that happened today.

I love this holiday, to tell you the truth.
The Rastafarian one, that is.

I was literally stuck in a day dream most of the day today because I talked to my man until 2am... four hours, and the phone turned off :[... and Gabbie texted me at 1am asking if I would please, we're desperate and I am worried!, take her to the hospital to see her mom. Her mom was with her boyfriend and he wouldn't go pick Gabbie and her brother up. So she turned to me. I should be honored. I would be honored... if she hadn't backed me into a corner to go buy her the morning after pill for her. It is 55$. She wanted to give me 40.
Jonathan was so sweet about it, though. He is so sweert about everything. I can't stand not talking to him all day. It is an awful stalkerish feeling, I realize.
By the way, Taylor was a physical being to me... nothing more, nothing less. I knew Jonathan before I knew taylor, and I continue to know more and more about Jonathan every day... Taylor, I have learned nothing about except that he has expensive taste and thinks i bent his glasses.
Jonathan, on the other hand, I learn something about every day. And I'm not even kidding. I'm telling a literal tangible truth. Every night he says something different and new. He says things that are the same a lot, but that's only because he didn't get to see my facial expression to that subject, so he forgets I was told. Gosh I love him.
I never loved taylor, I never will love taylor. We definitely made love, but that's not the same as having that emotion of love.

You don't even understand. I don't expect you to. I want you guys to be happy for me, and proud of me.
I know Kayde is, and Cece is ecstatic.
God I am so happy right now.
In may I swear to god I will just burst!
:DDD
♥